Since when 5 year old is a teenager? Has it always been like this (basically I am asking you know what right?). My 5 year dotty has the capacity to push that button which freaks me out every time.  What is it with children trying to break that boundary?  We had a meltdown moment yesterday. Don’t know how it started but it ended with  her telling me ‘ I wish you were not my mum’ she doesn’t call me mum but when she is angry she does use that term to increase the impact ( as if her anger  towards me was not enough, she had to give a voice to it).  Went I told her that I was stepping out of her space so that she gets time to calm down and not shout so that we can talk… rest of her anger came out. 

 You are always rude to me

You do nothing for me

 I am a child and I am 5 year old and you took my TV away

 You said you will break my teeth

 You never cook for me

I am better with bubu (her father) as he made pan cake for me today in the morning

Even as I write- now- after a day -I feel the pain. Not hers but mine. I know as a mother I am to feel her pain and anger and anguish. But sorry I cannot put her anger over my pain. Not yesterday or now as my type away.  I went silent for whole day and her father takes over.  I needed time to think. I was overwhelmed by her reaction ( to what I have no idea)  and I did not know what to do. But as she slept on my pillow curling up to my body holding my ears I told her

I am not rude but I keep boundary as your mother and as adult. I seldom say no but when I say no I mean it

I live for you. But I do not know how to tell that to you so that you understood

I took your TV away as you were unreasonable with us and you kicked and screamed. You do still watch TV during weekend

I said ‘ tappor diye dant phele debo’ when I was angry and I said sorry as it was wrong of me to say that. I apologised to you

I always cook for you. I am the only one who cooks. I plan the grocery, I plan your whole week’s food, and I plan variety for your meal and I shop. I travel 4 hours in a day to earn money, I work during the weekend to earn money. I just do not always have the time to warm up your food and give them to you.

Yes I did not make those pan cake. I was cooking your lunch before your swimming at 9 and your play date after that and then pujo after that. All I was doing was making sure you had something for lunch while your bubu was warning up the pancake. I did give him hand in that as well.   And You are better off with your bubu! That hurts!

We both were ‘not friends any more ‘ in the morning. I missed hugging her and she cried again for her TV. Such as life I say to myself and walk away from kitchen. I just compared my love with TV. 

In my lunch time I am planning her birthday.

But Friday night was different. Most nights and days are like this. We were in love . I am as she thinks her twin sister and married to her. We baked banana bread together from the leftover over ripped bananas. It came out amazing. I usually follow a BBC recipe, here is the link   but I changed a bit to suit my measuring skills.  This one is amazing with tea. You can add some pecan or walnuts to it too. you can eat in topped with more banana and homemade nutella

Banana Bread or Loaf

Print Recipe

• CourseDessert, Sancks

Servings	Prep Time
4 people	30 mins

Cook Time

30-45 mins aprox

Servings Prep Time 4 people 30 mins

Cook Time 30-45 mins aprox

Banana Bread or Loaf Print Recipe CourseDessert, Sancks Servings Prep Time 4 people 30 mins Cook Time 30-45 mins aprox Servings Prep Time 4 people 30 mins Cook Time 30-45 mins aprox

Ingredients

• 150 gm Butter Soft and in room temperature
• 130 gm Brown Sugar
• 2 large Organic Egg You can use any . but in room temperature
• 150 gm Self Raising flour
• 1 teaspoon Baking powder
• 2 very ripe banana
• 1/2 teaspoon Cinnamon powder

Servings: people

Instructions

1. Heat oven to 180C if electric or 160C if fan assisted or gas mark 4
2. Butter a cake tin. I used loaf tin. Spread melted butter around the tin. Then dust with some flour.I have also lined the bottom of the tin with parchment paper
3. Beat the butter and sugar until light and fluffy
4. Add one egg with the butter-sugar mix and beat. Then add another
5. Add the flour with the mixture little at a time. I added the flour over three folding. Add the cinnamon powder ( this is for a lovely warm aroma)
6. Mash the ripe banana and add to the egg-butter-sugar-flour mix. Fold the mixture with a spatula and make sure there is no lump and the mixture still has air in it. I used the hand held mixture and gave a quick mixing. But do not over mix as this will make the cake go flat and not rise.
7. Bake for about 30 mins or until a skewer comes out clean. Mine was done in about 35 mins but I over cooked a little to have a crust over which I like to eat
8. Cool in the tin for 10 mins, then remove to a wire rack
9. Serve with tea or/and hot chocolate and witness it to vanish in no time at all

   

Recipe Notes

You can add some banana chips on top

Also  you can add pecan or walnut for banana walnut bread